I’ve
described writing as a full-time, unpaid job (currently), which must be
balanced against the teaching job, which pays. The problem, as I have written
previously about, is that writing often gets subsumed by the teaching because
of urgency.
It took me
two weeks of vacation on the other side of the country to try and recover my
ability and desire to write instead of focusing so intently on teaching. Now
that I have it, I don’t want to lose it. I realized just how much I missed
writing.
Part of
this restoration of my writing has also led to me not as enthusiastic about
teaching. I don’t want to go through the loss of writing again, so I’m
naturally trepidatious about how far I go into teaching. I can’t afford to let
myself be as distracted from writing again, but I also don’t want to do a
disservice to my students.
I need to
find the balance.